Dumb, dumb, double dumb!!

The past several days I've been spending time with Moses and the Israelites in the book of Exodus.  This has taught me so much about what we hunger for, what we "think" we are lacking, and by looking back on the past all of this causes us to really not be where God wants me or you.  All of this causes us to live in such a manner that is not pleasing.  His desire is for us to be walking in the freedom that we have attained through Jesus Christ.  His desire is for us to have love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.  His desire is for us to bring Him glory. 

If you and I aren't doing that then we are hurting the heart of God.  I believe that if I'm not living in this fashion then I'm not trusting God and I'm going at life all on my own, or at best only giving Him little slivers here and there.  As I've been walking with the Israelites, God has graciously reminded me of this and it was like I was hit over the head with a brick.  The light bulb went on in my brain, my heart and in my thoughts of "wow, Yolanda, you've been dumb, dumb, double dumb!!" 

Why? Well lets suffice it to say that God closed a door that I've desperately been trying to open it back up.  By doing so I've been angry, I've nursed a grudge, I've been keeping one eye on the past and one eye in the current.  It's not been where God has desired for me to be.  Since I've had that wow moment, I've had so much peace!!  I know that I know that God is my vindicator.  I know that I know that God has my back.  I know that I know that God has the very best planned for me and I've not been trusting Him. 

Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for not giving up on me.  For showing me where I've been stumbling and needing Your guidance in my day to day life.  For allowing me the opportunity to share as this may help a girlfriend or a guy friend from my example of living life.  That You are always trustworthy and You are always for our good.  I love You Lord, Amen.