Addicted to Love

In my Thursday night bible study group this week I was hit afresh with what God has been doing in my life for a two full years now. Probably if I'll get truthful, ever since I gave my heart to Him. Humor me with the thought that it's been 2 years, for 1/12/2007 was our very first writing of Higher Grounds. He and I, what an amazing journey God has worked through me by sharing my very own life experiences in a teaching format for HIS HONOR AND GLORY.

A scripture that holds true for me today, especially in this particular writing is one a friend, Pam, is currently memorizing: Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. Eph 5:15-17

The statement that spoke volumes and confirmed to me that I was on the right path with Higher Grounds was "one of the most important parts of fulfilling our destiny involves transparency". This is not verbatim, but it's close, and the words were spoken from Beth Moore.

I looked in the Merriam Webster's Thesaurus, destiny, here is what I came up with: fate, portion, goal, objective.

Same thing for transparent as transparency is a derivative of this word: clear, lucid, opaque.

While there are times that it is extremely difficult to be so vulnerable because of opening one self up for a possible hurt, I still do this because of what God places on my heart to share, to teach and to encourage.

In my own words what Beth's statement to me is this: One of the most ways I can honor God is to be objective, goal oriented to point others to His vision is by being clear and opaque. YOLANDA, DO NOT BE A FAKE!

People are hungry to be around real people. A song that has been playing in my mind for the past two days is, Addicted to love. I'm getting real with you, transparent, vulnerable. This has been running in my mind due to being asked of a song or smell that reminded me of my teenage years, and perhaps my first dance. Not sure that this song was from my very first dance, but it was part of many school dances. I was so ADDICTED TO LOVE, that I looked for love in ALL the wrong places. I would love to have a do-over. I'm telling you that I was dumb, dumb, double dumb in the span of about 14 years.

I was sharing this over breakfast with my Man this morning with tears in my eyes and he said, "Oh but that is what made you who you are today." I'm thankful that I didn't stay in that pit, a pit I was thrown into and a pit that I dug for myself. Both thoughts hold true for being addicted to love. THE WRONG LOVE! You and I have a choice, we can choose to stay in that mess, or we can choose to be LION chasers and overcome our past. Luke 7:47 speaks volumes of my heart, truly it does, and confirms to me that what Bill spoke was absolute truth. "Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little."

Today, I'm addicted to......Jesus' love.

Father, thank You for the blessed gift of redemption, victory in Jesus. Our past doesn't have to be an obstacle for our future. It can be a beautiful opening for others to walk through the doors of healing by being transparent. Telling of our own steps, whether itty bitty or leaps and bounds, from our past to the current. MAKING THE MOST OF EVERY OPPORTUNITY. Bondage no longer a burden but freedom a reality. All having come to fruition because of the goodness of Christ. Thank You Father, for being real. In the saving name of Jesus. Amen.